For a while now, I’ve been in this place of react, react, react, react: to so many provocations, to so much negativity, and to some positive things, too. I’ve been in this posture of it’s all coming at me and I’m parrying, I’m hitting, I’m there, I'm fighting, I'm joining, I'm part of it.
But now: I need to stop. I need to choose. Stop reacting, and choose. Build something. Take a breath. Take another one. Get the screaming out of my head and write and read and walk and talk and see and hear. Hot needs cold. Action needs stillness.
I'm not good at this. But I'm determined to get there. And I don't quit.